Okay...I pay my $$, I make my cards....I log onto Flickr and get my photos posted...but then when I try to get to the original blog post about the swap...I'm stumped! There's some kinda glitch that won't allow me to see the blog where I can be inspired! I can't get back to it!
I can't get in!!
I'm feeling very discouraged..
and sad...
I was on it!
I made the postcards....
I painted....and pasted...
layered...
and wrote...
I mean I got Started!
All of the lovely words..
and sentiments..
were good reminders of where I want to be
right now.....
If only I could 'get in'....
I feel like I'm banging my head against the wall
The brick wall..
Maybe it's the wall of China..
Hopefully, Not.
But here's the reality.
I go on a retreat.
I don't feel great, so there are a few times where I don't allow myself the time to spend getting to know some of the other people there.
I try.
I engage in what I felt was meaningful conversation.
Sometimes met with openness.
Sometimes met with reserved quietness.
Sometimes I feel invisible.
I don't want to feel empty.
I don't want to feel disconnected...
Yet,
I'm still
alone.
and in that place I find I can still be
Inspired.
and in that place I find I can still be
Inspired.
Anyways...
I finished my cards!
I enjoyed the process of making them.
I'll keep trying to live the words I put down on the postcards.
Maybe I'll mail them to myself.
just sayin..
