DIY swap...I'm IN! .....or am I?

Okay...I pay my $$, I make my cards....I log onto Flickr and get my photos posted...but then when I try to get to the original blog post about the swap...I'm stumped!  There's some kinda glitch that won't allow me to see the blog where I can be inspired!  I can't get back to it!  

I can't get in!!  

I'm feeling very discouraged..

and sad...

I was on it! 

I made the postcards....

I painted....and pasted...

layered...

and wrote...

I mean I got Started!

                                                                

All of the lovely words..

and sentiments.. 

 

were good reminders of where I want to be

 right now.....

   If only I could 'get in'....

                                         

                                 

    I feel like I'm banging my head against the wall

  The brick wall..

Maybe it's the wall of China..

Hopefully, Not.

But here's the reality.

I go on a retreat.

I don't feel great, so there are a few times where I don't allow myself the time to spend getting to know some of the other people there.

I try.

I engage in what I felt was meaningful conversation.

Sometimes met with openness.

Sometimes met with reserved quietness.

Sometimes I feel invisible.

I don't want to feel empty.

I don't want to feel disconnected...

Yet, 

I'm still

alone.
and in that place I find I can still be 
Inspired.

Anyways...

I finished my cards!

I enjoyed the process of making them.

I'll keep trying to live the words I put down on the postcards.

Maybe I'll mail them to myself.

just sayin..